Right now I am having a hard time believing. Ever since I was a little girl I have been told that there is a prince out there for every princess. Growing up with that in mind I have not been pushing myself or even tried to catch a prince, since I would not have to. Now I am not so sure. One year ago I started off seeing my childhood sweetheart, during that summer my heart beat in an overpowering way. It finally happened. Though it all ended with too many question marks and a whole lot of crying. I lost my faith for a few months, thinking the fairytale was not for me. The winter came and so did a boy. Reaching out his hand in the cold winter, spooning me warm. My self esteem raised and maybe this time would be different, maybe this boy was my prince. Trying my hardest not to put too many feelings into whatever it was we were doing. Failed. This boy, who could have been my prince ended up being the biggest ass. It is starting to get summer now and I am having the hardest time believing that I will find someone someday. I am questioning everything about me; my look, my personality, my fear of letting my feelings or anyone else trick me. I hate every kind of break-up even those who I am not involved in. Though I have never been more ready to face every up- and downside of a relationship. It is so backhanded and I do not know what to do. I have lost my faith again. All I know is that I have to stop crying myself to sleep every single night, and try to believe that there is a prince out there somewhere.